OMG: I am about to start the new year and I can say I am absolutely terrified. I am afraid of failure and I often find myself just feeling like a waste of space and feeling like I have no more purpose. I feel lost and alone. I want to think that everything will be okay and get better. But sometimes I find myself doubting that it ever will. I want to get help, but I'm scared if I tell a counsellor, I'll be put into a hospital or something. I do not think I have it in me to ever harm myself, but just when everything keeps building up, I find myself feeling crushed by the pressure. Please help me. I no longer want to feel this way.
I wish there was something I could do to help. It seems like a lot of students here feel this way. Not a very friendly atmosphere combined with coursework = depression. You're not alone. :)
ReplyDeleteI was going to write a similar post with a few differences.
ReplyDeleteLast December I wrote a final for the class I was most worried about. I was very motivated to study and made a single point of mistake on the exam. I was bouncing, and then next day I began feeling depressed and began to sleep a lot. Over the break I was sexually assaulted and subsequently told that a relative had died. I began experiencing panic attacks, and then started abusing benzodiazepines. I want into a totally catatonic state of anxiety and could simply not work - before I was a 90s student. I was incredibly suicidal and dropped out of two classes.
And stuff... :(
The next two terms are the most important in my studies and I am scared that I will break down and fuck shit up.
lol you were probably asking for it
Delete2a fuck you
Delete+ 2a is a fucking ignorant troll
ReplyDelete